The Great Massacre

The Great Massacre...

Not talking about the Jallianwala Bagh Massacre or something...am talking about the great grand massacre every student goes through especially in a medical college..."THE GRAND VIVAS"..
The word itself has got me goosebumps...no wonder it makes you sweat n cry n weep when you even think about it...have been through this and a great big ordeal as it is...every fellow classmate would agree to what i am talking about...

You really feel like a jackfruit who is subjected to an arrow attack...that is what i felt too...knowingly and readily you agree to this attack knowing that this will fetch you marks and make u pass...you willingly enter the dangerous den and are ready to get attacked...with sweaty palms and a sweaty forehead...you get ready to fight this battle you know you will never win in the first place..then there you see a person with two big horns on his head,ready to chew you up,swallow you down,there are rays and arrows of questions bestowed upon you,and even if you try to catch them,you know you will never succeed..

Even if you behave as if the books are written by you and you try to answer,deep in you can feel the empty brainbox dingling...lol..any question asked makes you feel as if you have never opened the book,dazed and confused,and thats what is seen on the marksheet too...:P.. i guess they can hear that empty cranium sound too...you stand there as a fool who has a zero iq,they ask as if they know you are someone with an iq of 130..and thats where the balance looses out and you are asked to leave...

This is really one of a great challenge i have been enjoying,getting screwed up is true,but at the same time its challenging,you know where you stand,even if its the deepest fathom of a trench,but vivas make it sure you will rise,even if its just a question of a few inches...but the feeling of quenching and twisting of intestines is one of a kind,this can only be felt when you stand up there for vivas...you feel like you have been made to pass through a rubber tube of the least diameter..and when its over and done,you breathe as if you are breathing for the very first time... VIVAS are really one of a kind thing for students...i really dunno whether to stand up for it or against it...kuch bhi ho...exams would have been empty without them...kudos to VIVAS for making a student life so worth being called a challenging life..

THE YEAR ENDS....

So the year comes to an end...a blissful end to say...a busy year...full of studies, struggle and hardships...a year full of ups,downs and friendships...it has been a helluva ride altogether...to begin with...it was something i did desire for,but was not ready for...away from home...quite trying at times...but today when i look back,i see a wonderful fruitful time spent...where i got the best of friends...the worst of people too,lost on a lot,but gained a lot too,and surprising to say…but while returning back to my home…I realized I will miss that home back too…its been just the end of a year and still there are a few years to go…but I fear the attachment will grow stronger by then,which will make it hard to face leaving that place…really,it will….

The last lecture for the year,made all ur friends nostalgic,cause that’s where we got all of us,thats where it all started,a new life to begin with,a new small world we made up for our own to be there,which is now really close to our hearts,and will remain so…
That day,we friends decided to just look back to the time spent,the enjoyments,the struggle during exams,staying awake for nights altogether to get good scores(cause that’s the main reason we were here rite),surprise birthdays,all the fights,mood swings,not talking to each other on silly arguments,then again hugging each other just the very next minute,it was so untrue but true to believe that strangers could be a big part of your life now,people from so far away,just come together and stay and your life forever,the best of friends,who know you through and through,to be your emotional crutches,and make a strange place so addictive to live in,far away from your own home but still so homely and worth living in…

It makes me feel sad to see a year go,but then it was the best time I spent to get the best of people,will cherish them forever,and still looking forward for the next years to come,with a hope that time shouldn’t at all fly by,I want to stay in this,FOREVER…:)

YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART....

Every morning reminds me of ur childish giggles,every night of your bedtime stories...how can i just stop missing you...you were someone so close,someone to pour my heart to...there was so much left to tell you,so much to share with you...so much to laugh on...still so much left to do...

Remembering of the woollen dolls we made when i was small...you laughing on my stupid jokes...encouraging me in everything i do...some fights and a lot of love...from a toddler to a teen today...i wished you would be there to stay....

Wanted to come back and meet you like always...didnt know you would go so far off...without a word...wished you could open your eyes...wished you could talk to me...wished you never left us without you...wished i never had to see u still..wished i never had to see you vanish through the flames...

Just a last wish in my heart to keep you in my heart always...you are one precious gem i have lost...but your memories are more precious now and will always dwell in my heart...love you and love you always...with the heaviest heart we had to let you go...but with the best of love i will cherish the time we spent together...i promise to fulfill your dreams...still cant believe now you arent amongst us...still see you wherever i go...

WE WILL MISS YOU AJI...

You just left...without bidding a goodbye...

How could you just go? Yes i am still asking why???